Apocalypse. Uh-pawK-oh-lipse (from the Greek Apokalupsis).

1) Literally, an unveiling: a revelation of previously unknown truth.
2) Figuratively, a great cosmic event; a shifting of powers, an end of an age.

Here is the story which will reveal everything everyone wanted (or, in some cases, did not want to know) about Dusty Death. And, at the end of the story comes the end of the age of Dusty Death on LJ.

May the fireworks begin...

Just wanted to wish everyone a Joyous Samhain!  Here's an awesome music video from Inkubus Sukkubus!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQ-qxa6_FnU

Blessed Be

(Dusty promises to be a more active LJer in the new year)

...began as a "normal" day for me.   It was a Tuesday morning.  I woke up with a start realizing my alarm clock was still going off (and I had been sleeping through it).  Dang, I told myself, I knew I shouldn't had stayed up so late the night before!  I was so tired.  But that day I had an Intro to Counseling class in psychology and our paper topics were due that day.  Of course, I didn't bother to type my topic up until around 3.30AM the night before (on a side note, my topic was on the intersection of Christianity and homosexuality).  So anyways, I was pretty much dazed when I finally did roll out of bed.  I looked at the clock, cussed aloud, and tossed on a hippie tie-die t-shirt with short black shorts and black sandals.  Meanwhile my paper topic printed out.  I slung my backpack over my back, grabbed a Diet Coke to help me wake up, grabbed my paper and ran out the door...

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This is a continuation from my last post... Keep in mind that even while the event(s) in 2002 may come across as somewhat creepy, they actually were an intensification of symptoms I had been experiencing since I was 14... racing heart, head aches, left arm issues, left side issues... not to mention the fact that I used to check my blood pressure at the grocery store on Friday nights.  It was usually really high, like 170/100 (we're talking high school here).  I would tell my mom how high it was and she would think I was joking...But anyways, on to the 2003 continuation...

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Don't get me wrong, this all did not begin in 2002... the roots of my agony extend much further in my past.  However, it wasn't until 2002 when my body made it very clear to me that it was screwed up and that it had, indeed, begun the road that leads to an early grave.  This is the story, told while it still can be told.

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There's a really good reason why I haven't been on LJ lately... and I do apologize to everyone... give me tonight to read and catch up before making my first *real* post again.  Well, right before my grandma passed away my health took a nosedive (more on this soon, it gets complicated)... then grandma passed away, then there was the funeral which included the complete awkwardness of seeing someone who abused me as a child at her funeral (another weird story there) and then I was about to re-emerge from the dark tunnel I had been in for a couple of weeks when all of us suddenly came down with the flu.  Yep, even baby.  Someday, if you want to have a lot of fun, take care of a 9month yr old baby who screams constantly with the flu while you (and your partner) also both have the flu.  Its great, honestly!  So that craziness went on for a week...

...and now school is starting up again (more on that here soon too).
Dammit, Im really behind on my LJ posting. 

Well, today brings things full circle... in a sense.  A week ago thursday, my grandma went into a coma.  It was _not_ unexpected.  She was 92, had been in hospice most of 2008, and in a nursing home since 2005.  Last friday, they let her go... dad called everyone on sunday to let us know.  The memorial service was yesterday, and it was a beautiful service. 

Its been a weird week...

 Ok, fair warning.  This is gonna be a crabbing-blog. 

I'm really frickin pissed off at the incompetent secretaries at the hospital who have been giving me the run-around for the past 2 weeks regarding the results of the MRI/CATscan results.  They're all playing pass-the-buck because they're all too weirded out over the results... never mind the fact that I just keep waiting patiently and suffering in silence.  Trying to get to the bottom of all my medical issues has become a real drag.  I feel like I've been on the top of everything for years and I still get jerked around by the medical community for some reason or the other.  Here's my song of lament for this post:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nfXkeP3bW4w

Meanwhile, I continue to suffer in silence, while my body does who the hell knows what.  Half the time my stupid blood medecine doesn't even work (b/c it does nothing to address the root symptoms).  And even when it is working, I'm light headed and dizzy the whole day.  I feel sick all the time, I have no energy, my hormones bounce off the wall... I alternate back and forth between hotflashes and coldsweats.  I'm bitchy all the time & no one wants to hang with me.

apparently this entry is a redo cuz i freaked it up.  sorry everyone.  hopefully i will have it fixed sometime tomorrow, for now, the crap is gone.